I have a love/hate relationship with working at fairs. It’s great to get out there and rub shoulders with colleagues, do readings for new folks, and I have learned a ton even in the relatively few events I’ve worked.
It’s also utterly exhausting being “on,” energetically open for eight hours straight, and there’s no telling who is going to walk in and sit down in front of you. Some people’s energy feels great, but not everyone’s. This is why I blew the fuel pump on my van leaving my first fair! I was spent.
This conflict is also reflected in my manifested reality. The last couple of fairs I was signed to work, I found myself dreading the demands approaching the fair but worse, I had issues honoring my commitment. Now, this wasn’t conscious or planned–a trip to the Emergency room is never on my agenda! But I don’t believe in coincidence, either, so I have to ask myself, “Why?”
When I was invited to work at an upcoming Spirit Fair, I thought long and hard before responding. I don’t want to commit and then have some kind of emergency surface. I needed to understand. So that’s when I pulled out my pendulum.
“Would it be in the highest good of all concerned if I worked this upcoming fair?” Pretty straightforward question, right? I was fully expecting to see a “Yes,” telling me to suck it up and just do it.
But instead of a clear answer, I got back-and-forth, my pendulum’s way of saying “no answer for now.” I tried re-wording the question a half dozen ways and got the same each time. Ack! So I put it away, puzzled, putting off the decision. If I’m gonna ask for the help, it behooves me to listen. And hold off means hold off. So I waited.
A week or so went by. With the signup deadline looming and really needing to commit, I pulled it out again and repeated my questioning. I was frustrated to see the same non-committal responses as before.
What am I doing wrong? But just then, something clicked in my head…
“If I approach this fair with an attitude of service and giving back, would it be in the highest good of all concerned if I work there?” Clear yes!
“And if I approach this fair with an attitude of obligation, would it be in the highest good of all concerned if I work there?” Absolute no.
Bing, bing, bing! We have a winner and I have a better understanding of what I need to do to make this experience a healthy and helpful one. I signed on to work at the fair, with the plans to read on a donation/love offering basis. It’s a service!
This is the challenge inherent in asking the pendulum or the cards or any divination tools Yes or No–we want these tools to make our decisions for us sometimes when the point of power is always our own. I’m certainly not immune to wanting to side-load the responsibility off on my pretty rock hanging on a chain. But the pendulum wouldn’t have it. I’m glad.
What’s your experience using Yes or No divination?